Breakdowns, breakthroughs and insights
Back in 1999 I did the Landmark forum. This a transformational course that many people at the time felt was a cult. I think for that reason it might have been banned.
I did their Forum, Advanced course, Leadership course and their communication courses. Not for a second did I see myself involved in a cult, although there were a fair few people who became very zealous around the information and knowledge we gained.
The exceptional thing was that many of the lessons have stayed with me and shaped me over the last 14 years. The most notable being:
Punctuality - I always very late for everyone, not quite as bad as my mum who can be relied upon to rock up at least an hour and a half late (at the earliest!). At the time I would try to get as many things done as possible before I left to meet someone, invariably making myself late in the process. Now I don't. My time isn't more important and if I am going to be late I will always call when I know that I won't be there on time. Let me give you an example... Last Friday over running engineering works meant my train was delayed. I knew his at 5.31am, and even though my appointment wasn't until 6.45am I emailed ahead because that's when I knew. As it was a train turned up around 6.13, went fast Victoria and then a tube and I was just a few minutes the wrong side of 6.45am, but the important fact here was my integrity was intact. Integrity is being your word. So saying I would be there at 6.45 and being late, means my integrity is out. But the phone call allowed my clients to know I put their time as important so they could decide what they wanted to.
Breakdowns, insights and breathroughs are another Forum element.
The idea is this... things go wrong, and we have a breakdown, either getting really upset, falling apart or losing it. Now on the course they taught us to take notice of these moments. Look closer and see exactly whats happening. When you do this, when you sit picking away at the threads beneath the breakdown you get insights into whats happened. Now at that point you can choose to go "ah ha", then do nothing at all. Or you can 'test' this insight.
I've had a breakdown completely lost it. Now what happened and why?
I started a fast last night. By this morning I was already struggling, very hungry, by 9am I was light headed, by 12pm I'm really struggling and I was FREEZING cold all day. OK so our gym is cooled down by aircon but it way beyond workout cold. I got home and couldn't get warm, struggled into the last hour of my fast. Now I've eaten and I feel warm and a lot more settled.
So if I examine this what's happened?
Straight answer I think the cold added another element. I think my body had to work harder than normal to stay warm and I struggled. Couple that with no time for coffee or tea in the morning and my body chemicals all out of whack and I'm in trouble.
The only way for me to test this is to take a closer look at what I'm doing and change things round a bit.
So I'm going to go back to using myfitnesspal and logging what I eat. See what it exposes.
I did their Forum, Advanced course, Leadership course and their communication courses. Not for a second did I see myself involved in a cult, although there were a fair few people who became very zealous around the information and knowledge we gained.
The exceptional thing was that many of the lessons have stayed with me and shaped me over the last 14 years. The most notable being:
Punctuality - I always very late for everyone, not quite as bad as my mum who can be relied upon to rock up at least an hour and a half late (at the earliest!). At the time I would try to get as many things done as possible before I left to meet someone, invariably making myself late in the process. Now I don't. My time isn't more important and if I am going to be late I will always call when I know that I won't be there on time. Let me give you an example... Last Friday over running engineering works meant my train was delayed. I knew his at 5.31am, and even though my appointment wasn't until 6.45am I emailed ahead because that's when I knew. As it was a train turned up around 6.13, went fast Victoria and then a tube and I was just a few minutes the wrong side of 6.45am, but the important fact here was my integrity was intact. Integrity is being your word. So saying I would be there at 6.45 and being late, means my integrity is out. But the phone call allowed my clients to know I put their time as important so they could decide what they wanted to.
Breakdowns, insights and breathroughs are another Forum element.
The idea is this... things go wrong, and we have a breakdown, either getting really upset, falling apart or losing it. Now on the course they taught us to take notice of these moments. Look closer and see exactly whats happening. When you do this, when you sit picking away at the threads beneath the breakdown you get insights into whats happened. Now at that point you can choose to go "ah ha", then do nothing at all. Or you can 'test' this insight.
I've had a breakdown completely lost it. Now what happened and why?
I started a fast last night. By this morning I was already struggling, very hungry, by 9am I was light headed, by 12pm I'm really struggling and I was FREEZING cold all day. OK so our gym is cooled down by aircon but it way beyond workout cold. I got home and couldn't get warm, struggled into the last hour of my fast. Now I've eaten and I feel warm and a lot more settled.
So if I examine this what's happened?
Straight answer I think the cold added another element. I think my body had to work harder than normal to stay warm and I struggled. Couple that with no time for coffee or tea in the morning and my body chemicals all out of whack and I'm in trouble.
The only way for me to test this is to take a closer look at what I'm doing and change things round a bit.
So I'm going to go back to using myfitnesspal and logging what I eat. See what it exposes.
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