When do you actually bounce? When you hit rock bottom?

Am I the only one or does it feel like we're being hit form all sides every day?

This morning it was this.... Fly tippers had blocked the lanes completely. I reversed up about 400m and managed to turn round but then hit another load on the other way out.

This evening two punctured tyres as result.

This afternoon I spent an hour with Alek Skorupa, my massage therapist. This wasn't a pleasant hour, but my knee bend had improved noticeably within an hour.

Since my accident I've tried to maintain a warrior mindset and not be affected by the number of set backs I have experienced, physically, financially and in every area of my life. Most of the time I can keep moving forwards by focussing on the things I do want rather than the things I don't.

Sometimes I truly believe my resolve is being tested. Do I really want the future I'm trying to build for myself?

Last November I was starting to build momentum and climbing back from the set back I'd had with my knees... I'd gone from a 120 degree bend back to 85-90 degrees after pushing it too hard and the legs just locked up.

5 reps into a warm up set on a stability ball and the ball bursts, and I instantly hit the floor holding 20kg dumbbells, fractured left wrist, and a multitude of other injuries that presented themselves.

I've only been able to hold a dumbbell for about a month now.

Yesterday I trained with my son and managed to hold 36kg dumbbells, which I am pleased with.

Slow progress... but eyes forward.

The biggest help I've had is the Self Journal. I am about to start my 5th one next Monday, and I can't wait.



Each page starts at 6 and finishes at 9pm. There are 6 lines for gratitudes, and each day I set my goals and targets for that day and then with knock them over or learn lessons along the way.

Being battered from all sides is training me to be resilient and face forward, not allow my emotions to run wild and stay focussed on what I want to achieve. This journal helps me do that, even through the hard times.... because they won't last forever.

Because I'm creating the fitter I want to live in.

It's at a time like this I take a lesson from some of the games I play, the levels seem impossible and over and over I get beaten or destroyed, but I don't stop, I reset and try a new approach.

Tomorrow is a whole new day....